.: So Complicated :.

PICTURES!!!

Thu, 16 Dec 2004 04:55:01 GMT

...me... I think I was yelling at my mom to answer the phone actually (Sorry, not too cute lol)

...me, duh... I look kinda... dumb. just... blah...

And... hmmm.... well... Jess sure did have fun taking pics.... yeah.

PICTURES!!!

Thu, 16 Dec 2004 04:50:22 GMT

Thanks to my new Lj friend, Duxwig... I have pics!!! Oh and thanks (not much) to my best buddy Jess for taking the pics... these pics are kind of random & crappy b/c they were taken with a webcam that... well... we didn't really know how to use... see for yourself... eek! We woke up so early the morning of these pics... we had been up for like maybe 2 hours already to do our make up and straighten our hair so... yeah...

~ME... I think I accidently took this pic while trying to figure out how to take a picture... hmmm yeah.

Want a pic?!

Thu, 16 Dec 2004 02:07:53 GMT

Hmm.. Still can't quite figure out how to put pics on my journal yet, but one day I will... I think, If I don't give up first... ANYWAYS... if you want a pic of me just drop me a line and I'll email it to you or something... write more later!
-Trish-

4 day break, 2 days of school next week, then xmas break!!!

Wed, 15 Dec 2004 23:58:46 GMT

I am sooooo happy right now!!!
DATE SATURDAY NIGHT WITH MAC!!! (hottttie!)
He just broke up w/ his girlfriend a few weekends ago, so hopefully he's thinkin about moving on... with me!? ...hmm... well that would make me his rebound girl, hmm... but then again, it's Mac... 6 feet & 3 inches of perfection... Is being a rebound even that demoralizing? Cause honestly, I don't have a problem with it...
eeekkk... I DUNNO!!!

Anyways, 4 days with no basketball practice
4 days with no xboyfriend
4 days of shopping, getting drunk, & getting laid (much needed)

write back laterrrr
-Trish-

Wed, 15 Dec 2004 00:19:44 GMT

Today was soooo boring & long... I have like a week left until break, in all honesty I don't think I can last another week... I desperately need to get out of that school, I'm so ready for college (ku probably)! 16 DAYS UNTIL MY BIG 18TH BIRTHDAY!!! January 1st baby, and you all better be telling me happy birthday!!! .. HA, I say "you all" but then again I'm a newbie and don't really have any friends on here yet... Oh well, you all better become my friend so then I don't sound so dumb! Anyways, I have to go into Lawrence & pick up my check... write more later!

-Trish-

Tue, 14 Dec 2004 04:40:09 GMT

What is my deal?! I can't move on... I just keep going back to find the same thing time, after time, after time... In the past things were great, but lately they are the complete opposite. He has changed. So have I, but not for worse. He constantly brings me down. I just can't let go, but I need to. If only he could see what he is doing to a great thing. Ahh... It's so hard.

I got a little carried away for awhile and came up with this...

You must have forgotten
I guess you didn't care
Think of all the memories
The years we've shared
But now it's all gone
It's all gone and lost forever

You told me you loved me
You held my hand so sweet
I never thought it would end like this
I never thought it would go this way
But it's all thanks to you
thanks to you, for making me see

Do you recall, a certain time you said
You said I was yours
You said I was yours
I don't understand now
Why'd you throw this away
We had our perfect sunset
But you brought the cloudy day
You had everything, with me
So much for the memories

... ahhh.... i'm so frustrated right now. I just wish I could wake up tomorrow and forget him and everything about him... I'm done.